Winter Part 2

Winter: Reminiscence

On occasion I let those thought flow by
Those that  tell me I'll never see you again
Despite my strength, despite my heart
I feel that need to lay and die

Moments where I know my time with you
A blimp in comparison to years learned
I just want that to be us, maybe more
Than a couple months time in memory

All the things, all the thoughts, all the memories
I want to be your nostalgia that you look back
And smile, thinking of me in better light
But I don't want to be lost in your heart

Hold onto the thought that I am what you want
A man jaded, but still standing after it all
Wanting nothing more than to be by your side
A love that is new and scary but worth the effort

In the end I hope you find what makes you happy
I want you to smile even if it's not because of me
That when you cry that they would be wiped away
A beautiful soul that should never feel this hurt

Winter: Nights

My mind is my worst enemy in this scenario
Late nights laying awake with fear I won't see you again
My words like echoes in the halls of where we wandered
Struggling with self doubt and uncertainty, I'm scared tonight

I wish for a chance to show you what I'm worth
However little I am still wanting you to remember
Better days will with smiles, nights with whispers
My heart poured out into winter's cold

Shield me from your hurt so it won't spread
I'm waiting on your words to know I haven't left your thoughts
I want to carry that weight so you can see the daylight
My time won't stack up as against the past but...

I wish for a chance to see what years will bear
My love is something I won't give so freely
But I miss you now, only a day in, it's sort of sad
I want to feel that hurt, I want to know it well

To say I'm yours, I would give it all
To sleep through these cold nights
I'd give up my head and the words within
Just to say I had a chance to know you more