Thursday, July 23, 2015

At A Crossroads

Inside myself I feel the world
A short life that feels it has lived twice
I am not sure where I go now
To feel lost in your own shoes, in your own hometown
Waking up with the immediate sense of frustration
To feel angst as if you were young and angry
The same thing plagues my mind with every word
Why do I wish to mean something to someone?
To be the light of their eyes
A thought that never fully goes away
Neither for them, neither for I
It does seem childish to feel as such
Selfish for the first time in a long life
Wishing for more than I’m worth
After so much time I feel scared
More than I have ever been, terrified
That what I want is nothing
What I am is nothing but falling short
I feel so little right now
The child in me is screaming

Terrified of something new and all too familiar at once

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